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Bad Things, Good People

Heaven got another Angel this week. A 7 year old girl was abducted & brutally murdered close in our town. They caught a 20 yr old suspect. Wow. I think this affected me alot. The old question of why do bad things happen to good people. Do good things happen to good people?  I think the cops in this story are the good people. They must be, in order to deal with this horrible crime. Or any crime. But it's worse when a child is involved. I think about the parents of this girl and the pain they have now. The pain the cops have. I think you must have faith in God to get through this. Sorry this is so sad. But there is a star shining bright in Heaven with this Angel & all the Angels tonight.

Whew!

Mammo was good. What a relief. I'm good for 6 months.

Scared & Nervous

I am going for my mammogram in a few minutes. I am nervous. I am a little scared. I had an abnormal mammogram about a year ago. So now I am considered a high risk patient. Out of all the medical things I have had this scares me the most. But right now there is nothing I can do about it. The worry is there until I am told its ok to leave. So I can not imagine all the women who have been told otherwise. I pray for you. Here's to thinking Pink. Someone hold my hand please.                              

Pawn Shops, Pawn People & Pawning

Lately due to many circumstances we have needed fast cash. We went to pawn shops. This is interesting. One pawn shop looked liked a high end jewelry store with columns & bright lights. Another looked like a dark seedy alleyway pawn. The pawn people all have big guns holstered on their hips. That is strange to see guns out in open like that.The Pawn People are all as different as their shops. None of this looks like the T.V. shows about pawn shops. Mr. Well Spoken in the classy shop, Big Bubba in the alley shop.But the difference is in the money that's paid. The classy shop actually paid more than any of them.  But if you want to buy things their prices are ok. Hubby bought a soldering gun with everything for $12.99. I would have bought a pair of earrings but we were there to get money not spend money. So hopefully I'm done with pawn shops. I don't want to get into the habit of going to pawn shops!

Womens Strength

My uncle died last week & I started thinking about strong women. My aunt had taken care of him for a long time & now she was "unemployed". So I was thinking about how much women have to put up with emotionally & physically. Of course I can't lift a cinderblock but I can deal with almost anything. Men used to leave for war( now women do too) but women had to stay & deal with everything.I know this isn't anything new but I was just thinking about all the strong women I know.The women in my family are very strong women.My grandma, my aunts, my cousins, my nieces & sis-in-law are all very strong women. I am in awe when a woman does a" mans" job. Police, Fire, Military,Automotive were all traditionally a "mans" job.But it's also the quiet ones like my aunt who take care of men & continue to live on that I think of. Many women I have met online who have stories of strength to tell. My sis-in-law who lost her daughter last year, my grandma who is 98 yrs old, my other sis-in-law who's hubby has been out of work for over a year, & my aunt who just lost her hubby.These are strong women.Love to All.

Passwords!!!!!

I am soo annoyed with passwords! Everything I am trying to do on the computer needs passwords. I have forgotten every one I have so I try to make new passwords & am locking myself out of everything. Why can't I just get a coupon without joining a website & making a new password? A certain bookstore whose e reader I have is always wanting a password. What is so secret about what books I read? ARG! I want the same password for everything & anything. One secret code is all I want. Something easy that I can remember. Something like "Password", or "Secret". That would be easy. How about no passwords unless I want a password? My choice. I have to go & call a customer service # for a certain bookstore. The password is Barnes & Nobles!

100 yrs from now (or 50)

I was looking for new craft ideas the other day & it occurred to me that crafts are way different than 100 yrs ago. People always did some kind of crafts but now with the computer it's all online. What will our crafts look like? Blogs are journals.Scrapbooking is almost all digital. Atwork is also online. I was against e books at first. I like the fell & smell of books. I like holding a book. But I finally bought a Nook. What will become of books, paper? Like the Twilight Zone episode of the obsolete man, will libraries be obsolete? But is that a bad thing? There is so much knowledge on the computer. There are so many resources available but what will people think when they see our crafts in the future? I like the old pictures & reading old diaries. I like my Nook, I like computers, but I will always like books.

People I Know

I was thinking the other day about how many people a person knows.Not how many in a lifetime total, but just day to day living. I know the cashier at the grocery store, but do I know her?
I know my hubby's work people, but do I know them? It's strange how many people you meet but do you know them?What makes you really know a person? I know people on the computer, but I also know next door neighbors. The computer has expanded everyone's world. We know more and more people. Or we know of more people.In one day how many people do you meet? I say, Hi and then I say my name.Hopefully they do the same. Now I know one more person.
I guess in a lifetime one knows many people, but maybe one only really knows a few.

What Can I Do?

I am the spouse of someone who suffers from depression. I do not belong in that club, nor do I want to. But the club I belong to ( family members) is tough to belong to. It is frustrating to want to do something to help but I don't know how to. I want to make it all better. I want to make it go away.I want him to be happy again. I want to fix his depression. Sometimes I get" Life Depressed", but that goes away. That is just the blues.Mental illness doesn't go away. It gets treated but is always hiding around a corner.Sometimes I want to yell at him & say why can't you just deal with it & pull yourself out of it! But I know that can't be done. Sometimes I want it to be about me.But I am not sick.I am halfway sick.I am in the Family Members Club.

Reruns,Returns, Repeats & Do Overs

Last night hubby was dizzy again. I found out he was out of most of his meds. So I started getting that feeling again. I think it's called apprehension.Are things going back to what they used to be?
So I was thinking about reruns. TV is a big rerun. All the shows are reruns or copies of other shows. I don't watch tv.Returns are just copying of what you already bought. If you bought one & returned it then you will buy another.
Repeats are echo's. And do overs. Knowing what you know, would you do over anything? Is life a do over?I find many things are repeats of what I have done or said before.
So I repeat, Hubby will get his meds on fri. Then this apprehension will go away, or it'll repeat.

Today I Hurt

Today I am hurting more than other days. I have Psoriatric Arthritis. This is a strange disease. I look ok to people but I sure don't feel ok. It takes a long time to get moving. I am always tired. My joints ache. The itching drives me crazy sometimes. My right leg is starting to concern me. I know I should call my doc but I can't afford another doc bill. That's stupid because I know I shouldn't put a price on my health. Boy, just rereading this sounds like I am a baby. Or I am ranting. Ok , maybe this is a baby rant, but today I don't feel good. It's late & I should go to bed. Today I am hurting.

Argh! Blank!

I think this rain has left me rain dead! I can't think.  I can't move. I can't clean or cook. But my yard is alive! the a.c. bill will be lower! But "Function in disaster, Finish in Style". Maybe that's my new motto!        

Second Sleep

In my house we have something called second (sometimes third) sleep. This is after first sleep. If you make it to third or maybe fouth sleep, then you are sick. But second sleep is good. How much sleep does anyone need & really get? I take Ambien. My hubby takes Ambien. My sons will sometimes take one. I remember a time when I could sleep. Now we can't sleep. I'm pretty sure we have insomnia.But there are so many things you can do in the middle of the night.I clean,cook,& organize my house.

Then around 2 in the afternoon we have siesta time. (not third sleep!) This is just a quick nap. So how much sleep can I survive with? I'm TIRED!!

Purses

I was in a restaurant yesterday & I noticed women's purses. What kind of purse matches what kind of woman? How many purses does anyone have? I have many,many purses. But I tend towards big leather sacks. Like I could put a whole weekend in my purse. And I love the smell of leather. So how many should a woman have? I switch mine around a lot. I think I have at least 25 bags. An obsession or collection? There were 20 women & each had a different purse but the purses matched the women.does your purse match you? Is it a purse or handbag? What's the difference?

Support, not hose

I got to thinking about support today. Not support stockings, but people support. In our times of trouble what do we do? We look for help. We reach out. If we don't reach out then we feel that we are at the end & the sun will never shine again. Some people never reach & feel that there is no one. They take their own life.
Some do reach & grab on to a lifeline. Family should help family. Friend should help friend. Groups should help members. My hubby was going down a dark, dark hole & he did attempt suicide twice.But then he reached & we grabbed him. He goes to a support group called Emotions Anonymous. It's based on a 12 step program. But it'a fantasic support group. He has more options than he realized. It was a bad time when he had his attempts. He still fights his depression daily. There are ups & downs. But with support & love daily he is beginning to love life again.

Anniversaries & birthdays

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Thank You

This is to thank my host Pink Ladybug for having us to her house this weekend.It was so nice to get together.  Thank You Both for doing this.Lv Ya!

No Regrets Tour

I'm going to Fla today. I'm finally going to meet Betsy & Denise! I wish more would have come, but maybe next time! I'm so excited!

Family Ties

Just thinking about family tonight. Why are some people closer to use than our own blood family? There are some family that I haven't seen in a very long time & yet I see other people more often. I am going on a trip to see someone I've never met but I still don't see family as much. Do we take for granted that family will always be there? Do we think that they have to love us because we are family? Or not? But I do love my family even if they are a little disfunctional. And not because I have to, it's because I want to.

Pink Ladybugs

This weekend I am finally going to Fla! In honor of a lady I never met. About a year ago I had a breast cancer scare. My husband was traveling alot & wasn't home. One night I found a breast cancer web site & I logged on. I told my story about how scared I was. Immediately  a woman answered me. She called herself Cajun Lady. This woman calmed all my fears & answered my questions. I then met many more women on this site. We all talked till late in the night. The support was fantastic. Cajun Lady then became Angel Mama to many of us. She calmed many women. Many women have since died & Angel Mama became a real Angel Mama in heaven. So a few of us are going to meet at one lady's house. Her name is Faith.There will be tears but also laughter. We will talk about the Cajun Lady, Angel Mama, & all the others who have died. I do not have breast cancer but am considered a high risk patient now. Please support breast cancer research. Too many Pink Ribbons, Too many Angel Mamas.

My Inspirations

There is an herb shop by my house that I have become a frequent visitor to. The owner is a very calm, soft spoken,gentle lady. When you go into her shop you do feel less anxious. She has an amazing variety of merchandise. I usually buy some dried herbs & a new healing crystal. So I met a lady about a year ago at a consignment shop that she owned & became friends. This lady (Cheryl) moved away to Arizona & just moved back.Cheryl is a very calming & peaceful lady also. I took her to the herb shop. Cheryl is my inspiration for the art on this blog. So I am still learning about herbs & crystal stones. And probably will always be learning.

Doing things on my own

I'm still trying this. I do have a family but they are all sleeping now & wouldn't help me anyway. So this is a work in progress. A learning experience!

Mergie: Still Trying!

Mergie: Still Trying!: "Ok, It's Francene Hart. Anyhow I'm still trying to get this."

Still Trying!

Ok, It's Francene Hart. Anyhow I'm still trying to get this.

Wow

I think I figured out some of this. Anyhow the pictures are from an artist named Francine Hart. They're all so beautiful.

I'm Trying

Ok, I'm going to try this again. It can't be too hard, right? Never give up, keep pushing, reach for the stars, & soar like an eagle!