People I Know

I was thinking the other day about how many people a person knows.Not how many in a lifetime total, but just day to day living. I know the cashier at the grocery store, but do I know her?
I know my hubby's work people, but do I know them? It's strange how many people you meet but do you know them?What makes you really know a person? I know people on the computer, but I also know next door neighbors. The computer has expanded everyone's world. We know more and more people. Or we know of more people.In one day how many people do you meet? I say, Hi and then I say my name.Hopefully they do the same. Now I know one more person.
I guess in a lifetime one knows many people, but maybe one only really knows a few.

What Can I Do?

I am the spouse of someone who suffers from depression. I do not belong in that club, nor do I want to. But the club I belong to ( family members) is tough to belong to. It is frustrating to want to do something to help but I don't know how to. I want to make it all better. I want to make it go away.I want him to be happy again. I want to fix his depression. Sometimes I get" Life Depressed", but that goes away. That is just the blues.Mental illness doesn't go away. It gets treated but is always hiding around a corner.Sometimes I want to yell at him & say why can't you just deal with it & pull yourself out of it! But I know that can't be done. Sometimes I want it to be about me.But I am not sick.I am halfway sick.I am in the Family Members Club.

Reruns,Returns, Repeats & Do Overs

Last night hubby was dizzy again. I found out he was out of most of his meds. So I started getting that feeling again. I think it's called apprehension.Are things going back to what they used to be?
So I was thinking about reruns. TV is a big rerun. All the shows are reruns or copies of other shows. I don't watch tv.Returns are just copying of what you already bought. If you bought one & returned it then you will buy another.
Repeats are echo's. And do overs. Knowing what you know, would you do over anything? Is life a do over?I find many things are repeats of what I have done or said before.
So I repeat, Hubby will get his meds on fri. Then this apprehension will go away, or it'll repeat.

Today I Hurt

Today I am hurting more than other days. I have Psoriatric Arthritis. This is a strange disease. I look ok to people but I sure don't feel ok. It takes a long time to get moving. I am always tired. My joints ache. The itching drives me crazy sometimes. My right leg is starting to concern me. I know I should call my doc but I can't afford another doc bill. That's stupid because I know I shouldn't put a price on my health. Boy, just rereading this sounds like I am a baby. Or I am ranting. Ok , maybe this is a baby rant, but today I don't feel good. It's late & I should go to bed. Today I am hurting.

Argh! Blank!

I think this rain has left me rain dead! I can't think.  I can't move. I can't clean or cook. But my yard is alive! the a.c. bill will be lower! But "Function in disaster, Finish in Style". Maybe that's my new motto!        

Second Sleep

In my house we have something called second (sometimes third) sleep. This is after first sleep. If you make it to third or maybe fouth sleep, then you are sick. But second sleep is good. How much sleep does anyone need & really get? I take Ambien. My hubby takes Ambien. My sons will sometimes take one. I remember a time when I could sleep. Now we can't sleep. I'm pretty sure we have insomnia.But there are so many things you can do in the middle of the night.I clean,cook,& organize my house.

Then around 2 in the afternoon we have siesta time. (not third sleep!) This is just a quick nap. So how much sleep can I survive with? I'm TIRED!!